I thought all gays in under development and developing countries, have at least once thought how life would be if they weren’t gay, and how they could cure themselves and feel heterosexual.
Today when I was reading this news article I was thinking that I have learnt if I love my life, when I love the way I am, why ever do I need to be cured. Even if it’s a disease I love to be patient and suffer. Call it BDSM! but it’s more for me ‘love’.
It's a few week most of the company's personnel (of course except me) have almost nothing to do in their daily schedule. I really don't like it, I believe they could be very useful handling many long overdue jobs, but there's not much things I can do when bosses themselves are away and just come to the office one-day a week or so. This is not a position I expected our company to be a few months after (a more formal) establishment, I know it must be fixed and much like any other thing that should be fixed in our lives, it could not be fixed by anyone other than me. I wish and I hope to find someone who could help me reducing some of my to-dos so I could focus more on such these issues.
It's sad, someday I will be telling the stories of of how gay community struggled and worked hard to overturn a ban on gay marriage in California. A move that started a broader movement among all gay people all around the world, including me, and I will say I was there sitting at my desk, reading the news!
I wish I could be there, organizing events, communicating with people, trying to change their minds toward acceptance, fighting for my rights and for a better future, fighting for the next gay children to have an easier life than I had.
It's sad, here I even can't talk about it. Here is the story I will someday post on my facebook for all the people who "think" they know me, see what's behind this closet life and what makes me cry.
